I’ve been getting hit in the face lately with a lot of truth bombs. It’s that whole serendipity thing, but not in a fortuitous way. The universe is speaking to me and it is telling me I’m not fooling anyone.
The other night I read (in the most random crime short story from the 90’s) a passage where the author, talking about drug addiction, wrote:
"Sometimes a man quits trusting his strengths and starts trusting his weaknesses. His weaknesses are more apt to be dependable"
Yeah, that blew my mind.
Then I was reading this post from Andie Mitchell over at CanYou Stay for Dinner and she was talking about goals and making big changes that are impactful and when I got to this part:
"Sometimes when we feel stuck, any movement feels good. And while it’s true that doing somethingAm I moving toward my goals…or am I just getting by?"
I was floored.
SO. MUCH. TRUTH.
And it felt like a roundhouse kick to the head.
I always am talking about small changes, something being better than nothing. Heck, I love the whole idea of #wycwyc (what you can, when you can) because it works into my self-proclaimed crazy, busy life. But is it helping me?
I mean it has to be. Something is always better than nothing, right?
Am I growing?
Am I progressing?
Am I moving towards my goals?
Jeez, some days I don’t know.
I know that on any given day I can look over the choices I have made and find those that could have been better and those that could have been worse. I mean, hell I preach constantly about balance and 80/20 and never engaging in extreme behaviors. But it’s a fine line, right, between balance and complacency? And I have to stop for a minute and ask myself - am I coasting?
Am I trying to fool myself into believing I am doing enough?
Or worse yet…
Am I starting to trust my weaknesses more so than my strengths?
That’s so easy to do.
So how do I know? I mean seriously though, how can I honestly know I am taking meaningful actions in my life that are helping me reach my goals?
Am I just following the path of least resistance?
Maybe it shouldn’t be this easy
Or should it?
I wish I knew.
Love and hugs,